I had a break down today.
I wasn’t at work or anywhere near a bathroom stall. I was in my house making copies of some of my clips for a possible job opening.
I got a tip from a reporter at a competing paper that a job would be available soon and if I was interested I needed to step on it.
Today, I had the copies from five stories I thought worthy of showing a possible future employer when I felt like a traitor.
Ladies and gentlemen, it’s Benedict Angel.
I’ve worked at the Daily News for over a year and since that time I have grown not only with my writing, but with being a good reporter. I stand up for myself, I don’t back down when I want information and I’m not afraid to get dirty.
So when I was getting ready to give another company, a competing company, my resume I was struck with grief.
I have two options:
A.) Stay with the paper I am working at where I have been given multiple opportunities and many opportunities to come.
I have also established friendships, found mentors and bonded with the people I work with. The idea of leaving them makes me queasy.
B.) (If I get an interview and a job offer) Go to the paper that is well established, connected to the New York Times and will give me a pay increase.
The paper is also closer to my home, covers the area I have lived in my whole life and is where I have wanted to work since I had my first newspaper internship there four years ago.
So I have to decide. Do I choose for my career or for the people?